What I would give the World For.......

If someone where to come up to me and ask me, " if you could have anything in the world what would it be?" i would respond by saying a Christian father. Every night for the past 3 years i have prayed for my father. I have longed for him to know Jesus in a personal way. I have longed for him to know that he is forgiven for his sins, and has a spot in Heaven waiting for him. I find it so hard to pray for him sometimes, when i see how he treats my mother. I wish i knew what a Christian marriage looked like, and how it functioned. I wish i could look at my father and see God in him and want to be like him.
I can tell you that treating Jenny right has really been a struggle for me. Jenny is the most amazing women i know and has a heart for the Lord, and is, and has been a blessing in my life. I try so hard to treat her like she deserves but i still fail. I find myself acting just like my father, and treating her the same way he has treated my mother.
Lately has been good as far as my parents are concerned, they are seeing someone to fix things and it has been great to see how that is playing a role in their marriage. I have learned so much from my parents and know that they love me so very much. But years of mistreatment is starting to come out in me.
I would like to finish by saying, i will always pray for my earthly father and i know that God will answer in His own time, and my earthly father will one day be united with my Heavenly Father. This will truly be the best day in my life. But for now i look at my earthly father as the man he is, and try and show him the love that God shows me every day.