So lately i have realized that i hate a lot of things. Its funny cause i hate the word hate and yet i always use it (I just did it there to make a joke). But any who i feel like sometimes i "Hate" good things, and i "hate" things that i should enjoy. Like i "hate" Church. For some reason i really do not like church. I know this is bad, but its true, for some reason i can not convince myself to get up on Sunday morning to go, yet I know i should and i know that church should be a place to be fed at but i can get into it. Now i have gone to many churches of different denominations and i can honestly say that there is not church that i can get up for every Sunday and want to go.
For anyone who does not know me i "hate" reading. So this makes reading the Bible really hard sometimes. I have never been the best reader in the world to start and i have just gone from that to just not reading. Not reading hides that fact that i can read very well i guess, so i don't read a lot of the times. I feel like God is going to laugh at me like people do when i don't know how to say a word, but thats totally not true, but thats the way my brain works. The only way that i will read is if its something i am into. Most of the time this is sports. I have no problem reading about sports and whats going on in the world of sports but when it comes to just reading a book, i cant. So for me the hardest part about reading the Bible is, finding something that i want to read. I look for passages where i can really relate to and this helps a lot.
Not only do i "hate" to go to Church and read i also "hate" to write things down. I guess the fact that i cant spell would explain this one. I have to be one of the worst spellers in the world, my goodness. Sometimes i feel as though i should have to go back to like 3rd grade an re-learn how to read and write all over again. Since i started this blog i find it very easy to write, first off i am not technically writing, but you get my drift, and secondly i love having a spell check, this makes writing so much easier. I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So these are just a few things that have really been on my heart, and have been what i have been trying to solve. So any suggestions would be sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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You know it is okay sometimes to not want to go to church in the morning if your heart is not there. In fact, it might be worse to go if you are not in the heart to go. This is just lying and going through the motions. I know I have days when I don't really want to go to church.
Another thought is that maybe you just haven't found the church that matches your personal relationship with Christ or where you feel connected. I am sort of in this place right now. Currently, I am going to the Vineyard and Cobblestone churches. Cobblestone is where my family is and the pastors there are great. But the Vineyard is where alot of my friends (people you probably know as well) go and I feel even though it is a much bigger church, that I am more closer in a community there sometimes.
Also, God has the ability to change your heart in anything, I mean anything. If you truly allow God into this part of your life and pray continually over it and believe that he will change it, he will. I'm sure you know this, but sometimes it takes someone else to remind us of the simple things for us to catch on.
-IN HIM
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